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Feb
23

Filed under: General

Oh geez. I’m so sick of hearing about the gay marriages in San Francisco being unconstitutional. Give me a break! Why does the world have to revolve around religion? WHY? That’s the reason why so many of us individuals shy away from it later on in our lives. The damn Bible is so fucking contradicting. Everything in it is. God said we must love everyone, even people we hate. Well where is the love for the gays and lesbians? Why can’t they be married? Why can’t they have the same rights as the heterosexuals?

I’m just so tired of it. And here I thought Arnold was such a cool guy and to be governor even. Now he makes me ill. Obviously he’s extremely homophobic, because he’s trying to come up with a different reason for making the marriages stop.

As for me, I’m happy for those who have been married and are still getting married. I say, let it be. I was looking at some of the pictures on Yahoo of those couples and there were tears in my eyes. I think its so beautiful and so wonderful that they get to have what we other people have. And for the state of California to try and take it away. Its inhumane. And its wrong. I guess it will take 50 more years until the world opens its mind some more and allows everyone to live as they want, but by then it will be too late for a lot of them.

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Feb
23

Filed under: Friends,Rants

My dad hasn’t yet called today. This makes me happy. However, I now have to deal with Erin. She wrote in her diary last night about a crisis she had yesterday. That was the reason for the phone call I believe. Supposedly she had another miscarriage, this time resulting in a visit to the ER. I don’t know if its true or not. Lord help me, she is like the girl who cried wolf. I mean the guy she had sex with had a vasectomy after all. I know its still possible to get pregnant, but this is Erin. Totally different circumstances. So anyway, I wrote her an email after reading the entry. Told her I was very sorry (not really, since I don’t believe her story) and then proceeded to kiss her ass, by saying I was going through a lot and thats why I hadn’t called. I tried to make my little thing with my father into a sob story.

I’m tired of making people feel sorry for me, so they’ll forgive me for not calling them. I shouldn’t have to do that. It makes me feel cheap. I don’t understand why I do it either. Where is the rebellious Mary that used to be so strong, who would stand up for herself? Ever since I’ve become a SAHM its been this way. I’m much too dependant on Matthew and I let people take advantage of me. When I was working I didn’t depend on anyone but myself and I stated my opinion when it was needed.

In my email to Erin I promised to spend more time with her. Though, that might be hard to come by now that we’ll be moving. I’d much rather hang out with my friend Malinda. When I’m with her I’m happy and I can tell my problems to her without being criticized. My relationship with Erin is not like that. Its destructive and when I’m around her I feel completely powerless.

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