Filed under: Dieting, Kids

I’ll be gone for a few days. Going to spend time with Leilani and Forrest. Have some fun. Maybe visit Erin with the kids tomorrow, and give her the birthday present I bought. She’ll be turning 27 on Thursday. Luckily she understands I won’t be able to celebrate it with her.

Leilani’s tonsils and adenoids come out on Thursday morning. We have to wake up at 6:00 am and feed Forrest breakfast. Hopefully Matthew’s mom arrives around that time. Then we have to be at the surgery center around 7:00. Leilani’s surgery should start about 8:00. I have to call the clinic tomorrow and make sure the time is still set. Sometimes they are changed.

I’m a paranoid person by nature. Last night all I could think about was if something went wrong during the surgery. I shouldn’t do that to myself. It seems to come all on its own though. The paranoia stems from knowing they are working on an area where she breathes. And the anesthesia. It just freaks me out. I’ve read too many horror stories about anesthesia. Ugh. I’ll stop now.

We had a serious discussion with Leilani over the weekend. She doesn’t understand so she is scared. We tried to make it simple when we spoke to her, but she is just like her mom. Worries about every little thing. I know for sure she will be scared when they wheel her away. There is nothing more terrifying than having your parents not with you. I dealt with it twice when I had my tonsils and later my appendix out. Luckily the anesthesia hits you fast and you’re out. The next thing you know, you are awake. Every time I’ve gone “under” I come out thinking I’ve just fallen asleep.

Tomorrow night will be Leilani’s last time to eat any solid food for a while. Hopefully I can talk Matthew into McDonalds. I plan on cheating too. Speaking of eating…

I want to try the South Beach diet. I’ve almost fainted 3 times on this diet that I’m doing. It’s pretty much based on Atkins. My problem is if I stay at 25 carbs a day, I get extremely dehydrated and the fainting spell hits. Its scary. When I go over 25, even slightly, I either don’t lose a thing or I gain. I’ve been eating this way for 3 months and I’ve still only lost 8 lbs (it was 10). I still believe that sugar, processed flour, and starches are evil. But I have to be on a more liberal diet, or I’m going to be sick all of the time. These past 3 months have been full of heart palpitations, chills, sweats, and near fainting. I don’t want to live like this anymore.

Several Atkins dieters on the low-carb website I read switched over to the South Beach diet and say they are doing much better. They are still eating lower-carb foods, but they are also eating lower fat and supposedly are not starving. Starving is my biggest fear. Weight Watchers was like that. I was constantly hungry. Thats not something I want to repeat.

Matthew said he looked at a few places, for the book, but they were all hardcover. I think the book is extremely over priced. Even Dr. Atkins didn’t price his books that high. Hopefully he’ll come home with it today though. I want to get started and see if its something I can be happy with and not get sick from.

Filed under: Me

I don’t know what inspired me to even act upon this, but I’m going to start re-writing a children’s story I wrote when I was 12. I’m going to spend time thinking about each part. I want this to be good. Amazon has a “how to” book that received excellent reviews, so even before I begin, I’d like to buy it. This is it. I’m doing it. Something is telling me to get it done. I’ve thought about it before, but have never been this serious. Its scary in a way. Scary as in, what if someone tries to steal my idea. I’m definitely copywriting my material before I send it in. As a favor, I’d like all of my friends and family to review the story before I send it. Of course that will be a few months from now.