Filed under: General, Me

For some reason I became very dizzy last night. I had to lay down until it was time for bed. Luckily Matthew was a sweetie and put Leilani to bed for me. Usually he puts Forrest to bed and I put her to bed (same with baths too). I kept thinking it was the sirloin I fixed last night. It was strange, because there were 5 pieces of meat inside the package. 3 of them looked fresh (very red), while the other two were brownish and didn’t smell right. I cooked them anyway. And then I ended up eating the majority of the two “bad” ones. I’m only calling them bad now, because I swear its what made me ill. Matthew and the kids were fine though.

This week has been so lazy. I haven’t felt like doing anything. Leilani will be home the entire week, so this laziness will continue. We’ve decided she is still too sick to go to school. She isn’t eating and her throat still hurts. We lay around all day, watch movies, and they play with their toys upstairs. Like right now they are up there, making who knows what kind of mess. I’m scared to look.

I’m on day 2 of South Beach and counting my points with Weight Watchers. I’m doing well I think. I don’t get hungry and I have more energy. No dehydration. No cravings. Thank you, thank you, whoever came up with the glycemic index table!!! I love you man!

I still get spurts of being tired. Maybe its because I’m getting older. I was lying on the couch a few minutes ago pondering when I first noticed the “tired” spells, and its been happening since I was 18. I’d be lying with the kids at the daycare, while they took their naps in the cots, and I’d almost fall asleep. I remember being so exhausted. It was always around 2 to 3. Thats what time it is now and I’m really tired. I don’t think its anything that could be diagnosed. Just some weird thing my body does I suppose.

I can’t wait to start on my story. I thought about starting today. Writing out the characters and what they will do, etc. Like you are taught in Literature class, but I really need a calm place without screaming children. And I need my music. Some may find this odd, but I have to have a certain genre of music playing in the background while I write. It can’t be total silence. For one poem I wrote, ER was on. I was pregnant with Forrest at the time, and that episode of ER, where Lucy and Carter get stabbed on Valentines Day, was playing in the background. I was bawling of course, but I had total inspiration to write. The music was perfect for my vengeful poem! Muhahaha!

For this children’s book I ordered “The Neverending Story” soundtrack. It is going to be perfect for my fantasy! I ordered it yesterday and its already on the way. I can pick up my library books tomorrow too.

As for AI tonight. George better not get into the bottom 3. I will scream bloody murder! And I will make sure everyone down in California hears it! I’m thinking Camille or Amy will be down there. I feel sorry for Camille. That was me, when I first started singing. Totally shy, sweet, not a strong singing voice. Camille has potential. Her voice is very different. As for Amy. Hrmm. She should drop the Celine Dion act (cuz thats mine ya know haha) and just sing country. She sounds much better in that genre.