Filed under: Dieting, Kids, Me, My Business

I’m sorry little blog. I forgot you were here!

I have so much to talk about too.

Hrm…how to begin?

Let’s start with my job.

I love it!!! I have at least 3 pole parties a month. My goal is to get 5, but most of the time it doesn’t work out that way. Something always comes up and the Hostess has to cancel with me. It’s upsetting. I think a lot of people don’t understand that this IS my job. The money I earn is MY spending money. Most of the time I use it to buy marketing materials or something for the house or kids, so when I have enough left over to spend on myself its a real treat.

The “romance” part of the company is ok. At first it was great but lately its been a thorn in my side. The company only has Fed Ex 2-day shipping for Alaska. So if I order more catalogs or demos, I have to eat the shipping. I hate it and as of late have been contemplating leaving the company to pursue my own pole party business. I’m going to give myself a little time to think about it more though.

Mother Nature has been very generous to us with the weather this summer. It has been beautiful out and WARM! The kids play outside almost every day. I was hoping we would do some fun family things this year, but Matt hasn’t been keen on any of my ideas. I may just kidnap the kids and take them to Seward with me one day before school starts. Life is for living. Not sitting around doing nothing!

Lauralei is 2 now and Leilani is 11. Forrest will be 9 in October. I can’t believe I have an 11 year old! I put her birthday on my 2010 calendar because I had to write down a dentist appointment they have in January. Writing the number 12 felt very awkward. I stared at my handwriting and then realized 12 means she’ll practically be a teenager! Luckily Leilani shows no sign of angst yet and she still showers me with kisses and hugs…so maybe she’ll be one of those teenagers that still loves her parents. Or maybe she just isn’t “there” yet.

Lauralei is just, well…she behaves like a 5 year old. In everything she does. She has been speaking eloquently since she was 1 1/2. She uses big words now. She understands EVERYTHING. I’m beginning to think we have a prodigy on our hands. Leilani and Forrest never showed this potential at age 2. I wonder what she is going to be like when she is older. Maybe I should be scared.

Forrest has been having some difficulty this summer. I’m itching to get him back into school, because I think structure helps him cope better. I don’t have much structure around here during the summer. Last summer I made the kids do workbooks, but this summer I’ve been lazy. Luckily he’s made a few new friends and is being more sociable. Seeing him outside interacting with the boys makes this mama very happy.

So, besides trying to make my business successful, taking care of my family and house, and learning new pole moves, I am also trying to lose tons of weight. I joined a Weight Loss support group and 2 of my friends from the mom’s group are in it. I’ve lost 10 lbs and several inches. There is a reward at the end, but I’m not too concerned with it at this point.

I’ve started walking more and just recently began running the track. I’ve only made it around 3 times, but for a 220 pound girl, that is an accomplishment! Well, in my eyes anyway. I’m going to aim for 4 next week, which I believe is a mile.

Most of the girls in the weight loss group have signed up for a half-marathon with me. We are doing it in August. It seems far away, but its not. I am trying to “train” myself to walk farther distances. I think the running will help too. I’ve made it around the track 9 times with a combination of running and walking. During the rest of the week I pole and lift weights. I’m ready to get back into being fit.

I was sort of fit for a while in Florida (and an inch away from a pair of size 14 jeans! ugh!) and I want to strive for that again. But I also want to lose the rest of this weight and be thin for once in my life. There was ONE moment in my life when I was truly thin. I was 14 and a size 12. Almost an 11.

I looked beautiful and I felt beautiful. I want to feel like that again.

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