Aug
28
Its been such a long time since I’ve written here. I feel such guilt because I have such a pretty layout and I bought another year for my domain. Life has been so busy with 3 kids that I forget about writing. And I forget about so many other things too, like reminding my kids to wash their own clothing. Stuff just flies by me now. What was I thinking wanting 3?
But (this is going to be mushy so you can skip this paragraph if you want) it has been worth it. Lauralei is such a darling little girl. She is so different from her brother and sister and though she has given us some very VERY trying times, we would be lost without her. She makes us laugh so hard. Lauralei is a very kooky toddler and I wish I could capture everything she does on film, but I either forget about it or I’m lazy and say I’ll do it later - only to have her never do that particular thing ever again. Oh the irony.
Life has been hectic, not just because of having 3 instead of 2, but because I’m dealing with school now and helping with homework and trying to keep my house clean, while trying to take care of my own needs - like making sure I get exercise 3 to 4 times a week. I’ve lost about 23 pounds and I want to keep rocking it. I have SO many more to go that I have to keep telling myself to stop looking at the big picture. I need to set smaller goals, like fitting into my old size 18s that are in my closet. I can put them on, but when I button them I feel like a python is wrapped around me.
Things with my family aren’t going so well these days. But were they ever? Now that’s funny…ok so my dad has Parkinson’s and is still quite the alcoholic. Currently he is living near my grandmother in Mississippi and back to his old ways. And my mom was just rushed off to the hospital for the 1,239,977,804 time to find out there was nothing really wrong with her. I wish she had a doctor friend. If she did the hospital wouldn’t know her so well. She wants to start volunteering there and I think its a great idea because she’ll make some new friends. Next time I speak with her I’m really going to stress she does it.
I haven’t begun booking pole parties yet and I think that’s why Ive been in such a funk. I want to get started but I don’t have everything I need. And that’s partially because we have been waiting on getting money to buy it and also because I’ve been lazy. The lazy part comes from feeling down though. I notice right before my period comes I start feeling horrible. I just don’t want to do anything. I think last month was the worst though. The bathrooms were really bad and I just let them go. I finally had to have people over or they were never going to get cleaned. It was a struggle for me to do it, but I did. For some reason I feel spectacular when the house is clean. And then if people come in and notice, its an added bonus.
I have a long list of things I have been meaning to do for months. Like taking more pictures, scrapbooking the kids pictures, sending pictures to my family (because they’ve asked), getting my business stuff completed, knitting a bunch of things for a friend’s store… so I feel kind of like a failure. Maybe I should stop making lists.
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