Filed under: Family, Me, My Business, Singing

Things are getting better. I still think about Erin from time to time, but I feel that I’m healing.

As for life, its busy. I have a party this week, followed by another next week. Then another on the 24th. In between that, we will be celebrating Leilani’s 11th birthday. Then comes May when chaos ensues. I’ll be having a birthday, Lauralei will be turning 2, I have 3 parties, and then school is out. Whew!

I do hope that my parties won’t burn out over the summer. I’m having so much fun teaching the pole parties. And I’m still learning the ropes of how to do this business.

There isn’t much more to tell…

I did audition for Alaska’s Got Talent which was just an audition for America’s Got Talent. Nobody called me, so I assume I’m not what they are seeking. I think I did a decent job, but oh well. Their loss right?

It was nice having Leilani watch me. None of the kids had ever been to an audition before. She calmed me. She stood right behind the camera man, so when I got nervous I looked at her and all was right with the world. Looking at her even helped me remember the words! I love that kid. Even if she does drive me insane with her constant chatter.

My X-POLE should be arriving tomorrow (I hope!). I ordered it because though I love my Lil Mynx Pole, I needed something less invasive to put under people’s ceilings. Already I scraped the paint off of a friend’s ceiling and I don’t want that to happen again, or worse. Its portable, but I don’t think its as ceiling friendly as the X-POLE. And the X-POLE spins too!

I made Bronze last month with Brown Bag. I reached over $500 in sales and had one rep under me. Now I have 2. My goal is to reach Gold in the next few months (that requires 5 reps under me). But ultimate goal is to reach Executive by next year (which requires 10 reps). That would be awesome! And I’ll be making a lot more money. I can see myself staying at that level for a long time…

What I really want to do is…Get good at it. Learn advanced moves. Be fit. Then someday buy a retail space and turn it into a pole studio…and if I don’t get there, I can always work as a teacher at one, so I guess its not a total loss. I know I’m dreaming…and when I dream, I dream big. But who doesn’t?

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So the job isn’t what I was expecting at all. I was fine throughout the beginning of the interview until she started talking about how Curves is a religious organization and that she is a Christian and her sidekick that was with her was a Christian and the people who started the franchise were Christians, blah blah blah. I’m not that closed-minded that I couldn’t deal with that, but then she went onto say that they start every employee meeting with prayer and that did bother me. I am not religious. I don’t go to Church and I don’t want to pray. Would I really want to do that to myself every time I go to a meeting? I actually started to get a panic attack, because she began to sound like she was going to ask me what religion I was. When she finally went onto a different topic, my heart slowed down and I started to feel better. I kept asking myself, what if they can tell I’m not a Christian? (I think I had a weird look on my face when she was talking about it.)

The next topic of course, was the kicker. It’s commission. Not hourly like I had believed. If I sell this many cans of their product (which by the way tastes like shit – I’ve tried it before) then I get this much money. Or if I sell this book of theirs (which by the way I read and it’s a diet…) I get this much money.

I walked away from the interview feeling really depressed because I wanted this job. But I don’t want to be paid by how well I do as a salesperson and who’s to know what would happen at the next meeting, during prayer, if I stood there and didn’t bow my head? I’m sure nothing would come of it, but sometimes I feel paranoid other people will treat me differently (badly) if they know I don’t believe in God.

I decided that I’m going to put off trying to get a job until school begins. The teachers in the Anchorage School District may go on strike. They were going to do it last year when they failed to come up with a new contract, but decided not to. Now, it looks like they may strike because they still haven’t come to an agreement. If that’s the case, who knows how long school will be out of session. They had a strike about 11 years ago when I was in high school. Of course I thought it was the coolest thing in the world! All my friends and I had fun on those days off, but now that I’m a parent, it is so not cool.

Malinda and I did go sing karaoke last night. And we did have a lot of fun. (And don’t I just love italics!)

Eddie P was absolutely shocked I was here in Alaska! The look on his face was genuine. I was happy to see him as well. I swear that man does not age! He looked the same as he did 3 years ago, which was the last time I saw him.

We hugged and I told him a little about why we came back. He told me I look fabulous in the way that only he can and made me blush.

I sang so many songs! I’m going to have to go there more often. Now I’m really hoping the smoking ban passes. Fortunately the bar has a wonderful ventilation system in case it doesn’t. I hardly noticed the smoke and a miracle this morning – my lungs feel ok! I can actually breathe and I’m not wheezing.

One of the women there turned into my biggest fan. Hooting and praising me. She got up on stage after I sang once and said “Career! Broadway! Money!” I just laughed and mouthed thank you to her. Sometimes I don’t know what to say when people load me up with compliments. I do love it though. Singing is the only time I feel like I’m somebody.

I think next time I go, I’m going to bring my digital camera. I want someone to record me singing “Look At Me, I’m Sandra Dee”, because I performed it for the first time last night and it was a hit. I have never had so much fun acting like that. To be honest, I was kinda shocked I did it! I was scared to death. I’ll post that future video here. Wouldn’t that be interesting?

After the bar, we headed to Village Inn. I had breakfast. Man, I was so tired I felt like I was going to fall asleep in my seat, but after a few bites of food my body woke up. I saved most of what I had and am eating it right now. Today we need to buy the kid’s school clothes and find a hutch somewhere. It’s a laid back rainy day – but a good one nonetheless.

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I went last minute shopping and found a cute dark purplish blouse and picked up some silver hoop earrings to go with it.

Right now I’m forcing down a PB&J sandwich. Whenever I feel nervous, I don’t feel like eating. I feel like I do right before a singing competition. Oh and tonight I am going to be singing. Mbwillow and I are headed to the gay bar. Eddie P works there now (he’s a local celebrity I’ve mentioned in past entries). It’s a little later starting time than I’m used to (10pm), but I think we’re going to have a lot of fun. After my interview I’ll need to figure out what songs I’ll be singing. It will be so good to get out.

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It’s always fun when you are dancing with your friends to some awesome music and some strange guy comes up behind you and starts grinding. I was a tad shocked at first, but then I thought, how cool – because like I’m married and stuff and that never happens. I didn’t turn around to get a good look at him, but I was told he wasn’t the hottest guy on the planet. Darn!

My shirt did some shocking as well. The cleavage was out there for all willing eyes to go where most men have not gone before. Or ladies for that matter. It was the first time I had actually ever worn anything showing off such mountainous flesh. I have been a deprived woman. Poor pitiful me. But last night I redeemed myself to the world. And boy did I have a blast! I actually did a shot of Tokillya and it wasn’t that bad. It burned slightly, but tasted pretty good after I stuck that lime in my mouth.

I didn’t get to sing much. Only two songs. The first wasn’t that good and honestly the second wasn’t much better. I think the bar’s sound system sucks. I couldn’t hear myself at all. I sang “We Are Family” and “Chain Of Fools” which has become sort of my signature song – besides En Vogue’s “Givin’ Him Something He Can Feel”, but they didn’t have that one, so I had to compromise.

You only turn 29 once. I can’t imagine what next year will be like. The gears in my head are already in motion.